Something peculiar

I nurse an inexplicable interest in feelings. I do not fulling understand why I feel so drawn to that hunch, that feelings in your gut that something is right or something is wrong, but I am aware that I very much desire to follow such things when they are genuine and not borne of last night's bad potatoes.

And tonight, this Sunday the third of May, 2009, I have a very peculiar feelings indeed. Is it the end of the world, somehow? The beginning of it? I've had much cause to cry wolf about the world's end, and I almost always hold back, because I really don't think the world will end very soon- yet here is this feeling- not totally undeniable, but palpable, here, in my heart. My brother and Wife are asleep on the couch and in bed, I just watched a fascinating movie, and I am still up, experiencing this most peculiar sensation that, somehow- tonight is special.

I do not understand how, and I will not elaborate further upon this feeling nor on past ones, particularly considering the contents of this splotchy blog, but I did feel it necessary- tonight, someday, I will look back on it, and realize that something changed tonight. Something that puts us on the final stretch towards the end of 'the world' or, rather, the destruction of the wicked. I do hope I don't count in that last group, although it is difficult for me to be sure.

Tonight is special. I told my wife, I wrote it down- now you and I know. I think I will spend the next few weeks or months trying to figure out how this might be significant- what changed, what happened or began this night, that I should be experiencing this.

Not very scientific, I know, but I never really claimed to be a simple person, exactly.